jadegirl | Five Years...

It's been five years since I started noticing you on the edge of my vision, seeing that cloud of dark hair and that easy smile. Five years since you shifted from the edge of my vision to the center of it, as I watched you, watched the simmering power of you, so seemingly at odds with that same ease, and wondered what you thought about. Five years since I glanced at you, and found myself caught in your own gaze, yet unable to rise up and meet what was in your eyes. Five years since you moved into the front of my mind.

The past five years have been strange and beautiful. Hard, but it seems that the times the pain seemed beyond bearing simply cleared the way to the beauty we have now, the beauty that never does fade, that reminds me that no matter what, it's worth it.

With you, I have become so much more than I ever thought I could be. In your eyes, I'm something, someone I never even dreamed of, and every day I push myself a little harder to become what you see. Every day I look around and remind myself it's not a dream. Of course it isn't - "Every dream I had was a charade of you."

Happy anniversary, Sir.